I am struggling. I think this is something that is often hard for people to admit, something people don't want to say out loud.
Six months ago I would have said I was making some progress with my eating disorder, but within the last two or three months I feel as if I have taken several steps backwards, and actually things are much worse than they have been for a long time. I feel more depressed, more broken and beaten by this than ever before.
It is a constant fight. A constant struggle, and it is so hard.
It is hard to carry on, to wake up each day, get out of bed each day, go to work, and to do the things I have to do.
In the last few months I have found myself looking more and more for a way to end the pain and torment I feel, or at least numb it for a while.
I do not feel very strong anymore.
I do not feel like I will overcome this eating disorder, I feel as if my life is one big battle and I am losing every single day.
Please, if you know someone who struggles with anything like this, reach out and show them some love, I'm sure they'll be grateful.
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